I choose this username because things are weird sometimes. We always groan about how life sucks and how growing up and things changing is oh so difficult but I really have to conclude that I am not the one who has changed. In retrospect, I am the same ignorant little girl with lopsided pigtails who skipped down the hallways of my elementary school to get to class on time, the naive yet slightly enlightened preadolescent who entered the bigger halls of middle school, and even the same freshman who came to the giant maze of a high school we know as MV. My personality, I feel, has not changed much. I am as loud and annoying at times as I was in preschool. I am still shy around strangers and new friends, and I don't think I will ever get over that tiny twinge of uncomfortableness that is always present in unfamiliar situations.

The only thing that is changing is our confidence level. Ever since the beginning of last year my self-esteem has gone up up up. I think it's because of all the clubs and organizations I joined. See, in middle school I never really fit in. I was kind of like that person who was afraid to get into anything, who never took risks. But last year I went by the mantra of now or never. Don't let the moment slip by. And while I did excell in certain areas of high school and kept surprising myself, I did let a few moments slip by. Entrepreneurship in FBLA. Wow I could have done so much better than that. Journalism Application. Maybe, just maybe, if I had spent that extra lunchtime or a few extra precious minutes in the morning editing my application, I would be a happy journalist right now. And I don't think anyone really knows how much I wanted to be accepted.

You may say, "Oh if you wanted it so badly you would be on it right now." But you don't really know that every moment I had, I spent on editing. I remember after I hurredly finished my STAR tests I took out my app papers and began crossing out, revising, and adding in. I'd stay up to 1 every night to discuss every little detail of every sentence with my friend. :(

So anyways, these are my spark notes on my life.